I'm embarking on a journey. It's one of the toughest journeys I will ever take. Even I cannot fathom just how difficult until I make it through to the other side. If I make it through, that is. Maybe I'll be lost forever. If I come through the other side I'll probably be a different person. I hope that I am a better person, and a better friend. If I'm not, let me tell you ahead of time that I'm sorry.
I'm going to go missing. In fact I'm going to be decidedly absent for a good while. Even when I am there, I'm not going to be 100% present. I’ll be self-absorbed, distant and non-committal. Please be patient. I am going to be preoccupied with stuff that I tell myself is more important. I'm going to be wrong about that, but that’s the way I will see it at the time.
I'm going to become boring (or more boring than I already am). I will talk about the same thing over and over again. I will talk about things I have never talked about before. I'm going to learn new things every day and sometimes I will want to share what I have learned. I'm going to be excited about some of the things I learn and I won’t understand why you’re not as excited as I am.
I might ask for things that make you feel uncomfortable. Things like giving me feedback on ideas, or sharing content that I produce, or trying the products that I make. I will know that you will feel uncomfortable and I will ask anyway. It’s OK to tell me “No”. I will not think any less of you when you do (well, I might, but I'll get over it).
I'm going to have set-backs and failures. They might make me upset, frustrated, disillusioned or even a little depressed. You might even be worried about me. I'll be OK though. A word of encouragement and I'll be back up and on my way again. I'm going to rely on you for that encouragement, even if it is only superficial. I'll believe every word of it.
I'm going to be overly excited about unusual things. Something that might seem insignificant might make me feel over the moon. Celebrate with me. It might be short lived.
I wrote this so I could tell all of this to you, but also so I can occasionally read this and remind myself what I owe you for helping me along the way.
If you've read this and you think that you’re not up to the task, I'll understand. I hope that you understand that I no longer have a choice. This is a journey that I have already started, and I am unable to turn around now.
If you’re on board and ready to take the journey with me, great!
Strap yourself in.
It’s going to be a wild ride.
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